It's all about family

Hello Again

I just needed to share this with you. Rob went for lunch at Kieran's school today (I went the last time) so after eating lunch Kieran asks Rob if he will fetch him, Rob says no because he is going to fetch Cheyenne on her bicycle - something I refuse to do. Anyway he says to him that I will fetch him as usual, and he says okay and he also says tell Mum I love her.
So Rob duly tells me that my son loves me and I say to him as I have often done that Kieran will NEVER really understand how much he is loved. He will never know the extent to which he is loved, because after losing Jonathan and then having him born early and in Neonatal ICU for 6 weeks, I felt as though a huge of piece of my soul was lying in that incubator with him. I got up early everyday to be at the hospital for his 6am feed, Rob would come straight from work and we'd stay so we could do his 9pm feed, and we were just settling into an acceptance of what our lives had become, watching our son grow and get stronger but his little lungs just not getting him enough oxygen.
Then miraculously one day I go into the unit and he is lying in an open cot, away from the incubator that had been his bed for 6 weeks, and I hear the fabulous words that he is off all oxygen and come home.
Then 2 days short of a year later we are blessed with a big, beautiful and perfectly healthy little girl. She is loved as much as Kieran but there is always in the back of my mind the fact that had it not been for a fabulous team of doctors and nurses we might never have gotten to know Kieran and he like our Jonathan may have been lost to us forever.

So today I am grateful for my family, two beautiful children in this realm, one, an angel living in my heart, my husband who's proved how strong our love really is by always being there. Then of course are the rest my wonderful mother and amazing father, my darling sister and beautiful girls. My brothers so weird (or should that be eccentric?) I love them all and even though most of them are 11000 miles away, they are all with me right here, right now as I write.

In love and light.